Fragments of an awakened soul

Distraction made me drift for so long. It does not seem like something harmful that affects us, but it affects us greatly; it is as though it were a ship sailing toward its destination, but soon changing direction. Today I have a focus every day, I have a constancy in my focus on God; this already creates a constant movement, but I still spend a great deal of time distracted and I know that I could go much farther if my focus remained steady.

Entertainment, distraction: it lifts our mood to a certain point. Of all our needs, the highest is that of self-fulfillment, of feeling that we have accomplished something with purpose. That is why creating is so important, whether art, music, writing, or projects in the physical world; we can create in infinite ways. We are creators and we find fulfillment when we create: we do something in pursuit of an authentic purpose that deeply touches our soul.

I love the truth, I love seeking the truth, I love knowing the truth, and I know that my ikigai would be in this area, but it goes far beyond that, because I do not want merely to create something that carries the truth, because that is already something that exists. What I truly want is to create something that is not merely about speaking truths, but about integrating these truths within us, so as to change our lives, because that is what I want to do. What is the use of knowing everything, if we live with anxiety and depression?

For that reason, I want to create something that shows my journey to develop thoughts that lift me up, that empower me, that transform my feelings and change the quality of my life forever. I want to create something that can be used by people to see that we can think differently and feel differently, and be happy in the now, regardless of anything. My prayers show this desire, and my reflections do as well.

Jesus is much more than a friend; He is the light that guides us out of darkness, He is the energy that replenishes us with the joy of living, He is the demonstration, for us humans, of the unconditional love of our infinite God. Jesus is a reminder of God, so that we may remember His power and infinite love.

With each passing day, I feel more fortunate to have You, Lord, in my life, because this kind of peace, this kind of trust, I could not find anywhere in the world, only in You. Suffering tormented me day and night, anguish devastated my heart, but, in Jesus, I finally found a peace I had never felt before; I had to make Him my priority and walk in His path of truth. Much introspection was necessary, much work on my part and on His, for my perceptions to begin to change, for my thoughts to be healed from evil, and I know that this will be an eternal activity that I will seek together with Him, in pursuit of the perfection of my spirit.

I have already spent a long time without understanding what was truly important. I sought the Lord, but I still lived in suffering; even knowing that my intention was pure, to follow the path of the Lord, I still did not understand.

Today I know that this phase was part of the path and that, throughout the journey, the Lord was preparing me to acquire the awareness of what I would need to understand in order finally to have the peace I had sought so much.

Peace was never in perfect circumstances, in physical conditions, or in the era of the world. Peace was always in You, peace was always in pure trust and total surrender to You, in recognizing Your infinite love and in knowing that there is nothing that is not possible for You; that I may leave behind all heavy thoughts, of anxiety, anguish, and worry, and rest in trust, rest in peace, rest in You.

Today I want to think only of You, Lord. I want to dedicate myself to You, I want to place You in my heart, I want to make myself present in You, I want to recognize Your flame that already dwells within me; I want to cultivate it so that it never goes out.

I want to do Your will, Lord. I want to work for Your name. I want to dedicate myself entirely and purely to You. I choose this day to dedicate myself to You, truly, not only for a few minutes, but my entire day. I want to cultivate thoughts that lift me up to You, I want to shape my perceptions so as to feel my love for You ever more greatly, I want to transform my thoughts so that no low thought may communicate with my soul; I want not only to shield my mind, but to repel these thoughts far from me; may I, through the frequency of love, create a field, a force that allows only love to enter.

You do not need to know everything, you do not need to know the whole path; you only need to understand that in Him everything is enough. He will guide you, counsel you, comfort you, teach you, and cultivate love within you. He will show you the truth, the next step you need to take, and that is all you need.

Do not waste time. The pleasures of the world are so small, last so little, never satisfy us, and always leave us with a feeling of emptiness; they are not beautiful in the eyes of the soul, and it is not in them that you will find the happiness you seek so much.

All we want is to be happy, to attain happiness, to feel well, and I tell you that the ONLY way you will fill this deafening emptiness that torments your soul is with what I have just explained: the first and greatest commandment taught by Jesus Christ: “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind.”

You will not become a perfect person the moment you place God as a priority in your life; you will still make mistakes and may still repeat feelings of hatred, fear, resentment, and hurt. But you will be on the right path, because, even if you make mistakes, you will continue walking toward God. You will come to understand and repent of what you have done, you will transform your conduct, your thoughts, your feelings, and, most importantly, you will continue placing God as the north on the compass of your life and will continue walking toward Him.

There is no perfect circumstance for you to begin placing God as a priority in your life. There is no right moment. You do not need to wait; you can begin now, change your thinking, change your beliefs, and recognize what was said by Christ, and define now, at this exact moment:

“There is nothing more important than God in my life. God is more important than anything, than anyone. God is infinite in love, knows all that He does, and always wants what is best for me, but He gave me the free will to choose, and today I recognize the greatest teaching of Christ and choose God today and forever, just as He has always chosen me. God is the central value in my life, and all I need to do is simply love Him with all my heart and with all my understanding, and place Him in all my thoughts, all my days, and never forget Him.”

When you believe this, when you make this a truth, you have finally understood what it means to “accept” Jesus. To accept Jesus is not a declaration that one makes, but a complete change within you. If you have “accepted” Jesus and did not perceive this, and still live a life of illusion, you understood nothing, and, at the end of the age, Jesus will say: “Depart from me, you who practice iniquity.”

Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life; no one goes to the Father except through Him. Not because you say, “I accept Jesus,” and believe that this will save you, but rather because, when you listen to and believe in the truth proclaimed by Him, you will see the path that will fill you with life.

Jesus is admirable; the love I feel for Him is indescribable, but we need to stop holding superficial beliefs, which serve more to anesthetize the ego than to truly transform you, and begin to place Jesus as the highest priority in our life. There is nothing more important to human life than what was taught by Christ; we need to study, meditate, and put into practice, every day, each teaching.

We have to focus on what was said by Jesus and understand the depth of His words. The divine commandment is based on love, it is the state of love, it is living in love; we have to feel love at all times, we have to act through love, we have to be guided by love and, of all that we can love, we have to place God as the highest priority. There can be nothing more important than God for you, there can be no priority greater than God, there can be no other motive except God. After placing this value in our philosophy of life, after burying in our hearts God as the greatest importance, we have to cultivate love for Him and live in love at all times. When we do this, we transcend all illusions, all prisons, all manipulations, and we will be totally free in God. Everything comes down to this.

When we free ourselves from all the low vibrations of fear, dread, and suffering, we connect with the infinite and abundant energy of God, where everything serves for our good. There is no lack; there is an abundance of riches that transcend everything we know as material wealth. In this state, we do not need to save or store up, because we will always be satisfied in all our needs, at the moment when it is necessary, without the need to keep, without the need to plan, without the need to worry, because, when we truly live in the vibration of God’s love, everything that is possible reflects our state of trust, love, and total surrender to God.